Authentic Heart Revealed-A Motherhood Moment Poem

I wrote this just after the Soul Sisters Conference last fall, when I was still very much in that beautiful, creative soul space where poetry just naturally flows...I felt like I could have written oodles of poems, but this is the only one I managed to capture...

10/28/13

2:30 am

Tonight you were my little animal

My puppy

My cub

My little offspring.

I ran for the bottle,

Eager to appease

Your lusty cries.

You drank it up,

Full of thirst

Until you were satiated.

You grunted to let me know you were done,

Then nudged me to initiate

Cuddle time.

I flipped you over and we began our dance.

Belly to belly

We relaxed into each other.

Oxytocin flowed

As I smushed my lips into

Your soft skull

Your feather hair

And breathed in

The fragrance of you.

It filled my nostrils

And seemed to flow

Directly into my heart.

We rocked, and snuggled,

And very soon you slept.

Our beautiful animal dance,

Performed so many times,

So precious to this

Late in life,

Having lost all hope of you ever coming

Mama.

My back, my knees, my neck

All began to ache

But still I held out

Holding you as you slept on,

Filling your mama’s heart

Full to the brim, then overflowing just a little.

I creakily got to my feet,

Gently cradling you, my beautiful huge son.

Tenderly I placed you in your crib, and tiptoed silently away.

Back to sleep, hopefully, or else awaiting your further summons.

Oh my sweet.

Oh my baby loves.

You will grow up,

My big beautiful son

And the pearls of these times

When I can rock you to sleep

Will become a distant memory.

So I gather each precious pearl

While I still can,

And place it lovingly in my treasure box.

So grateful for each and every one.

Mommy loves William.